Responsible

I am a first born so it seems I find my pendulum swinging hard to the responsible side. I not only try to do everything right for my own life but I try to right the world for everyone else's life. I take on too much responsibility.

This is not right. The load becomes heavier than God intended.

I was singing a song the other morning with Marissa curled up beside me in bed. The words were: "Be still and know that I am God."  I kind of forgot Marissa was beside me until she said, "You're Michelle Harris not God."
I laughed as she looked up at me with her coy grin.

I pondered her statement later in the week..."YOU ARE MICHELLE HARRIS NOT GOD." I thought how often I take on all kinds of responsibilities as if I think I'm God. I mean, I don't really think I'm God. Of course I know I'm not, but I think I can try to control life's events hoping to keep everything in a perfect balance. I forget that someone bigger than myself is organizing my life in a way that may not seem perfect to me. But in a way that can be trusted.